Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, I Walk These Streets Alone, #2 - The Lyrics

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

I Walk These Streets Alone

#2 - The Lyrics

“I walk these streets alone, freezing to the bone,

The scorching sun affords me only light.

My dead heart, wrecked from pain, will never beat again,

The skin around my frame is warped and dry.”

I felt like a dead man walking…

That’s the truth, and I have to say it honestly.

Just like “Walk Upon The Water”, this songs lyrics came from a dark place, one I tried not to become accustomed to, and one I never intended to live in.

“Why do I walk these streets alone?” is a line that came from the feeling of dread that I was married, yet walking the earth alone somehow.

The lyrics are straightforward throughout the piece, and as I said previously, the song remains today as originally penned several years ago.

The ending, “now the only question left is...WHY?” is supposed to show the sheer pointlessness of looking for meaning or reason or explanation.  

Probably my darkest song to date, and hopefully the darkest ever, I am glad to have written and released this piece, because it allowed me to finally express what I never shared publicly with anyone.  And hopefully, my experience, and my willingness to be real, will help others say what they feel.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, I Walk These Streets Alone, #1 - The Music

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

I Walk These Streets Alone

#1 - The Music 

I love the feel, the sounds, the length, the abandon, the experimentation, the breadth of Pink Floyd songs.  Always have.

Always will.

As I sat feeling depressed, years ago, while on a week away with my (ex)wife, I idly, mindlessly strummed a somewhat familiar pattern on the guitar.  Something slow, haunting, empty feeling, dead somehow.  

The song “I Walk These Streets Alone” pretty much wrote itself like so many of the other songs.  I sat, played, sang…

This song ended up being such a depressing song, but adequately created the feeling I had at the time.

The songs remains as originally conceived, lyrics and chord patterns, as I quickly recorded many years ago, but I never fully developed it.  How could I, without giving away what I truly felt at a time I was not prepared to?

After years of a sketch eating up space on my hard drive, I pulled this song out, listened to my inner orchestra, and set out to bring to bear all that I had in me.  Footsteps in the dark, a distant choir singing, twangly guitar playing, growing tension and huge, stadium-style sound and lead guitar, accompanied by my mind’s eye seeing a light show with video montage of a lonely, vampirish man, trudging through life.

After several days of playing, recording, arranging, singing and layering sound up on sound, I was excited to share it with Kerrie when she came home from work one night.

She sat, mesmerized, maybe even dumbfounded, at the barrage of sound and the scope of what I had created.

She told me almost immediately, “I didn’t like this song when you played it at the show the other night, but THIS is awesome!”

High praise, and I’ll take it as a job well done.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Will You Still Be Mine Tonight, #4 - The Lyrics, Part Two

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Will You Still Be Mine Tonight

#4 - The Lyrics, Part Two

As Patty Smyth and Don Henley once sang, “sometimes love just ain’t enough.”

Sometimes, nothing is enough.  Sometimes, as I have learned throughout the years, some things just are, and you will drive yourself crazy looking for a reason, an explanation.

Though eventually my previous marriage came to an end, at the time I wrote the lyrics for this song, my heart cried out for something real and permanent.  At the end of it all, I realized I had lied to myself and everyone else for quite a while about who I was, what I wanted, and what I could tolerate.

“We thought that love was forever.”  Now these words are ones that are haunting for me, though they are encompassed in a cute song.

“It all comes down to me and you,” was a sentence I would speak to my (ex)wife while we tried to recover from the turmoil and tumult of our relationship.  It was my way of speaking a commitment that I was growing weary of, but somehow believed in nonetheless.

I filled the song with hope for a new day.  A better day. A day where the answer really would be “Yes!  I will be yours tonight.”

That day, sadly, never fully materialized the way I hoped for.

My only hope now, for my current marriage and for anyone reading this, is that, though sometimes love just ain’t enough, sometimes it is what we have, and we cling to the one we commit ourselves to and give ourselves fully to each other, accepting each other.  It is what the human condition cries out for - love and acceptance.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Will You Still Be Mine Tonight, #3 - The Lyrics, Part One

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Will You Still Be Mine Tonight

#3 - The Lyrics, Part One

“Will you still be mine tonight?”  

Words that I really meant, in spite of the difficulties in my marriage at the time.

This song will always be a bittersweet reminder of difficult times in the past.  Some of my own failures, some of hers. All of ours.

How can you really know if you will stay married?

How can you really know if the person you are with really wants to be with you?

I guess you ask.

And I did…

With a cute little lyric in a cute little ukulele song.

Of course, the song progressed to become something bigger, but at the beginning, all there really was was some “do-do-do-do’s” and the chorus lyric, “Will you still be mine tonight?”

I remember that she had gone away to visit family out of state.  We had another fight before she left. It wasn’t good.  

I didn’t really know if she would stay away (again), or come home.  So, I sent her a rough mix of a ukulele, some whistling, and the chorus.

She came home…

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Will You Still Be Mine Tonight, #2 - The Music, Part Two

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Will You Still Be Mine Tonight

#2 - The Music, Part Two

With a new tenor ukulele in hand, some newfound information and desire to use the instrument, I began playing it on a regular basis. And I mean regular!  That thing is easy to take around the house, outside, anywhere!  

And, as normal, I began to play the uke like me, putting combinations of chords and strumming together in my way, especially since I was new to it.  I came up with the chords that you hear during the opening of the song, and began to whistle. Yes, whistle! It was such a happy little ditty!

I quickly realized that I needed to get this idea down and fast.

I went to my studio, turned on my Mac and opened up a new file in MOTU Digital Performer, the sequencing and recording software that I use, and laid down the basic tracks you hear in the recording.

The rest of the song took shape over several weeks, really. I wanted to stretch a bit and work the song to include some different turns.  During the turn around to the lead, I wrote a simple bridge section to include a cool synth line ending with a little motif I had begun playing on the uke.  

All things considered, though I didn’t play uke throughout the piece as the main instrument, it was THE main instrumental influence.

Probably my favorite part of the song, though, is the bass line.

I really wanted to give a nod to one of my personal heroes, Paul McCartney, and write a moving, melodic bass line to go with the lightheartedness of the song.  I worked for quite a while until I arrived at the bass part you hear in the song. Maybe I achieved what I set out to do, and maybe I didn’t. I just hope Sir Paul would approve!

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Will You Still Be Mine Tonight, #1 - The Music, Part One

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Will You Still Be Mine Tonight

#1 - The Music, Part One 

I bought my father a ukulele for Christmas one year.  Yeah, I know, strange gift. But, you see, I grew up learning to play guitar after watching that man sit around most every Sunday morning, strumming his guitar and singing old Hank Williams songs, and other songs by quintessential country artists like Johnny Cash and Roy Acuff.

During the time I was visiting mom and dad for the holidays, dad insisted I show him how to play it, since he knew some guitar, but had no idea what to do with a uke.

Of course, I had NO IDEA.  So, I looked up some details, figured it out, and we sat for a long time messing with that uke before I had to return home.  I say “we”, but really he never touched it. He let me play around with it and smiled the whole time. I’ll never forget that!

So, I returned home and had an itch.  A ukulele itch.

Guitar Center provided the best and closest place to go to buy one for myself, and I must have sat for hours, playing several ukes before deciding that I wanted a tenor uke for the tone and ease of playing.  I took it home, sat for hours and hours learning some basics, and probably driving my family mad doing so. But, I was enjoying myself with a new instrument, and with a new tool.

What’s this have to do with writing the music for “Will You Still Be MIne Tonight”?

Stay tuned, and I will tell you next time.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Funny How The Time Goes By, #2 - The Lyrics

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Funny How The Time Goes By

#2 - The Lyrics

Funny how time goes by, isn’t it?

During the time I originally laid the tracks for this song, my (ex)wife had returned home and we were working at our marriage again.  But, the song was written, and I intended to finish it.

“Funny how the time goes, funny though she don’t say why she disappears, now she’s not here,” was a pretty direct statement of what had occurred.  

“Funny how the feelings go, funny thing is you don’t know, one day they’re gone, they’re moving on,” then, “ooo, ain’t it funny,” was an overtly honest statement that I never thought would make it past my (ex)wife.  But, sometimes, you HAVE to write the truth, no matter what.

Curious thing, after I had finished recording and mixing this song, it was her favorite, she thought it was THAT good.  She actually told me that she thought it was the best song I had written to date. I still am not sure she understood that it was all about her, and me, and what had occurred between us.

The words, “Funny how I just don’t know, if I can find the words to let them go, yet through my tears they’re crystal clear,” was me saying that I wanted out totally, and didn’t think I could say it, though I knew exactly what I wanted to say.  It would take another 7 years before I worked up to it…

I gotta be real honest here.  This is my favorite/least favorite song for all of what it says.

I know that a lot of people think it’s great and want me to keep it in my set list, but one day it may be time to put it away, and really move on from the past.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Funny How The Time Goes By, #1 - The Music

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Funny How The Time Goes By

#1 - The Music

Funny thing about time.  It really does go by.

I know it more every day, and as I sit writing this I am acutely aware of it.

You see, I am supposed to write about how I came to the music part of the song, but the truth is that I simply do not recall.

What I do know, and somewhat remember is that it was clear back 2007 ways, that it was a response to my (ex)wife leaving me for a time, and that it was supposed to be the peculiar juxtaposition of the word funny with the sadness of the song.

And I remember going to the studios at Full Sail University in Winter Park, FL to record the guitar parts.  This part of my memory is fully intact.

You see, I knew this was a different piece for me, and I wanted a very particular mic’ed guitar sound, and wanted it to be done well.  I had heard that you could get time at Full Sail University Studios for students who are learning, and I applied, booked time and set out, tracks in hand, to lay down the guitar parts.

First off, let me say that the instructor and the students were great!  I realize I sat in a learning environment, but they went to town at getting my Taylor NS42CE mic’ed up perfectly.  And, when I asked for something specific - that is, a mic to record near my ear, not near the guitar, since that is what I am used to hearing when I play - the instructor said “that’s a great idea” and the students set it up.

We recorded a few different passes after getting a good check on my headphones, and then worked on the set up to do the lead parts.

I played my Taylor 410RCE 25th Anniversary edition steel string acoustic also, and it was a joy to listen to as they worked with me.

The engineer played producer a bit, having me add harmonies to my lead, even though I hadn’t planned on it.  Worked out beautifully, and you can hear it in the song. I am grateful for the input.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Everything’s Alright, #3 - Epilogue

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Everything’s Alright

#3 - Epilogue

I released this song back in 2008 on an EP.  

It didn’t go anywhere.  

But, Christianna did sing some tracks with me and it is the most precious moment of our lives for me.  Her voice, at that age, so pure and true. She is a wonderful singer still, and I love hearing her sing.

For this current release, I used the same tracks, just cleaned up some problem areas and remixed the song.

One of the things that had always stuck out in the original was some pitch problems I had.  Not many, just a couple that I wish I could correct. So, with the tools in my set-up nowadays, I was able to correct them. Digital Performer, my DAW (Digital Audio Workstation) of choice, has great plugins that allow me so much control, especially when it comes to pitch correction.

I also spent time taking the original tracks and putting through the same mixing process as the rest of the songs on the album, so it would fit in as part of the whole.

The thing about this song is, it is so simple, timeless and easy.  Whenever I perform it live, I find people sitting in the audience singing along, as if they have been singing it with me for years, even though I know they are only hearing it for the first time.

I guess that is what marks a great song.  When people so identify with it the first time they hear it that they can sing along.

I guess I couldn’t ask for better.  To help others feel, see and know that everything will indeed be alright.