Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, You Save Me, #5 - The Acoustic Single Version

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

You Save Me

#5 - The Acoustic Single Version

I really loved the version of You Save Me that I recorded. It felt... right.

Upon playing my tracks for my friend, Jeremy, I waited to get a response. Just what would he think. I value input, and want to tweak if something is "wrong" or "missing'.

Jeremy replied with a suggestion that I hadn't considered, "You need to do a full acoustic version, no big arrangement and big guitars. Just stripped down acoustic and intimate. And you need to release the acoustic version as a single, not as an album cut."

Again, I REALLY liked the version I had recorded, so it took me by surprise.

I decided to copy the entire recording session, strip away the big drums, electric guitars and electric guitar solo. I kept the acoustic performance, strings and percussion, and built from there. Since I liked the electric guitar solo I had come up with, I replayed it all on acoustic, and kept the same "vibe" as the original.

One piece I really liked from the original version was the end. I had created a multiple acoustic lead counterpoint ending that was fun, and reminiscent of the song 50 Years that I had written for my parents 50th anniversary. Sadly, the idea of creating an acoustic single would mean I would have to edit out time, and I sacrificed that section. It remains on the album version, although there are times I think the album version should be acoustic with the elongated ending, and the single should be big and edited.

Oh, well. The things we do for our art...

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, You Save Me, #4 - The Lyrics, Part Two

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

You Save Me

#4 - The Lyrics, Part Two

Why, oh why, are there so many naysayers in life?

Why do people feel they have the right to steal your joy?  Or better yet, control you and your happiness, your decisions and choices?

That was one thing I wasn’t ready for after starting my relationship with Kerrie.

I won’t go into it all, mostly because, after being divorced a while, I still get people who feel they have the right to tear into me and my decisions.

As I tell my mother - that is not my zoo and that is not my monkey!

Let’s just say, no one has the right to tear you down for deciding to live a better life, for any reason.  They haven’t lived your life and wouldn’t let you live theirs!

That said, the bridge of this song wrote itself.  I had to silence the negativity and I did it quickly and easily, “Though some don’t think it’s right, I know it’s not so terrible.”

And the final bridge line was something Kerrie and I say to each other all of the time.  The past behind, the future ahead, we are where we are because of where we have been, so “I’m grateful for the years that brought us to this day.”

All in all, for an hours time writing, I am well pleased with this piece.

It made my daughter cry when she first heard it.  She realized that I was back to writing, and she was happy to know that I gave love another chance.  That was a great response, and one I didn’t expect.

When I played the rough recording of the song for Kerrie, she sat stunned.  No one had ever written a song for her, and she was overwhelmed.

She says I saved her, too.

But, wouldn’t that have to be yet another song?

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, You Save Me, #3 - The Lyrics, Part One

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

You Save Me

#3 - The Lyrics, Part One 

“I love your smile and I love your laugh.”

Those words were so easy to come out of me when I was writing this song.  

Kerrie has a beautiful smile and an infectious laugh.  The words had to be written. As did..

“I love your nights and I love your days.”

Any time I am with Kerrie, I feel alive.  It’s not just a “brand new love, giddy silly” alive.  It is that “look who I am and who I am with” feeling of being alive.  It is the culmination of having believed for so long that life was grander than what I had been living.

I change the first chorus from “You made me live again” to “You helped me to love again” in the second chorus.  The reason is simple. I feel alive, more than ever, and she helped me love again, the way I always dreamed of, but was scared of trying for.

“You save me” was the perfect ending to the chorus, because to me it was very apparent.  Kerrie had saved me. She opened up my life to things I had only dreamed of, and fooled myself into thinking wasn’t possible.

I don’t say those things to complain about my past, or my ex-wife.  I say it because of what had become of me through my own decisions.  

Kerrie really did save me.

From me, mostly.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, You Save Me, #2 - The Music

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

You Save Me

#2 - The Music

When a Broadway show comes through town, Kerrie works all day Tuesday through Sunday, most often getting out after 11PM and home by midnight.  Sometimes, while we were dating, I would try to take her to work and be there to pick her up later. Other times, I wouldn’t be able to, so I would go to her apartment and wait for her, making dinner along the way, so she could have a good meal at the end of her day.

After a few months, and realizing that I had fallen in love with this woman (something I wasn’t sure I really wanted to do again), while I was waiting at her apartment, I picked up my guitar.  It had been a while since I felt like making music, and it was the first time I felt like writing.

This music came out like it always does, unexpectedly.

I rarely open a song with a chord inversion, but I started to strum this pattern:

G/B - C - D/F# - G

It felt good, like an old friend, yet different.

After strumming a bit and singing a few words (which I will share in another entry), I needed to move to a chorus.  

To me, the chorus should be major and bold, straightforward and strong.  Yet, I found that I moved to the Am chord and a few twists that I hadn’t really tried before.  And with the melody that I was singing along, it all fit hand in glove.

The bridge was even less difficult, because I knew exactly what I wanted to say in the lyric, and it all came out, pretty much as you hear on the recording.  In fact, I had completely written the song in less than an hour!

I had felt inspired by this woman.  By a new lease on life. With gratitude for feeling so good about my future.

She really had saved me!

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, You Save Me, #1 - The Beginning

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

You Save Me

#1 - The Beginning 

I am now married to a loving, bright, fun, loyal, short, redheaded Polish girl.

Kerrie has spent her whole life working in her chosen career field, and I am so proud of her.  She does wardrobe and entertainment costuming. She has worked with Saturday Night Live, the Rockettes, and The Mighty Mighty Bosstones, as well as on various TV shows and movies.  The past several years, she has worked primarily at the Dr Phillips Theater for the Performing Arts in downtown Orlando, FL.

I met her some time ago, while playing in a 60’s band.  We talked about getting matching jackets to perform in, and one of the bandmates said he knew someone who might be able to help.

Enter Kerrie.

Over the months working with her on finding the right look and the right material for the jackets, I had opportunity to get to know the kind of person she is.  She was fun, carefree in many ways, and the kind of person I would like to be around a lot.

One day, I asked her if she would like to go to dinner, or out for coffee, to move forward on the jacket idea.  She agreed and we looked for a date that fit us both.

I had no idea that we would move forward from that day, getting to know each other more and eventually falling in love.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Breaking Glasses, #4 - The Recording

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Breaking Glasses

#4 - The Recording 

I’m breaking out of my format with this entry, because I have so much to say about this song.  It really is a pivotal moment for me, both musically and personally.

When I began writing this song, I really had no idea how it would resonate in me, and in others.   So many people who have heard it already have said how much they like it, and how it speaks to them.

And that, I guess, is the point.  

I want to write songs and music that add to the experience of life in some way.  

Maybe my songs makes you think, or reconsider.  Maybe they make you dance and enjoy life. Maybe they represent to you that you are not alone in the universe, someone shares the same feelings.  Maybe they help you move on from a problem.

With that said, when I recorded this song, I was looking to make a straight-ahead, big sound, raw almost.

At the very beginning, I leave the sound of me getting ready to play the guitar line, just so it feels more live, more like I am right with you, playing and singing.

I end the song with “I am my father’s son,” to remind me and you that we come from somewhere.  It’s OK. 

After all is said and done, this song represents the place where I began to fully embrace who I am.  And that I am prepared to live life as me. And that with Kerrie, I will live MY life. You know, the one I see in the mirror.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Breaking Glasses, #3 - The Lyrics, Part Two

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Breaking Glasses

#3 - The Lyrics, Part Two

Marriages are an amalgam of two people, their lives, their cultures and backgrounds, their desires and dreams, their likes and dislikes.  It has always been and will always be that way.

In the case of my ex-wife and I, our marriage tended towards blending more in with her family than with mine.  She was uncomfortable with certain aspects of the Bishop family; they didn’t DO life the way she grew up, my father was a joker and liked to keep things lighthearted.  It got harder and worse as the years went.

As the point of the song shows, I had begun the process of conforming to her way of thinking and seeing myself in order to keep peace in our relationship.  It wasn’t the right decision.

I have a great family.  They are loving, loyal, fun, peaceful, serious when necessary, and respectful of each other living the life they choose.  

Anyone who meets my mother knows a beautiful smile immediately, with a heart that backs it up perfectly!  And my dad knew no stranger, but didn’t take any bull.  

Oh yeah, my dad loved to joke around with you and poke fun.  It might get too much on occasion, but if he liked you, it was his way of saying so.

She didn’t care for that. 

So, I was not supposed to be anything like my dad…

But, I am my father’s son. 

He is my father, and I love him and miss him every day.

It took me too many years to say it.  I did it at the end of Breaking Glasses as my way of honoring him, and me.

“I’m so tired of breaking glasses.  The mirror shows one face. This one’s me.  You helped define which one the mask is. I had to choose one.  This one surpasses. I am my father’s son.”

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Breaking Glasses, #2 - The Lyrics, Part One

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Breaking Glasses

#2 - The Lyrics, Part One

As I sat playing with the opening chord pattern of this song, I remember the feeling that I had when I first started seeing Kerrie, my wife.

I had left my ex-wife, and was now with a new person.  It was wonderful, but difficult. The familiar was gone, and the though it was exciting to learn a new person, it felt a bit off somehow.  Of course, it did. How could it not. Everything my heart was feeling was wonderful, and everything my mind was telling me was not so...

So, I penned the opening line “When I hold you, I know that it’s not right.  I know this ain’t the place that I should spend the night.”  

I finished writing the verse and knew I had to push into a chorus.  When I played the G chord into the chorus, I had a melody, and even an idea.  That idea was that I was so tired. But, tired of what?

Then, as I sang the words and melody, “I’m so tired of…” breaking glasses poured right out of me.  I knew this was the point and title of the song immediately.

But, what did it mean exactly?

Searching my heart and soul for while, I realized that what I had done for year after year was live a life that was not what I was when I really looked in the mirror.  Breaking glasses meant that I had busted out the mirrors image to create a new look, and one that was not me, and that I did it a lot. I had conformed to an image of me that someone else for decades thought I was, or should be, not truly who I am.

I finished the chorus with, “I gotta choose one.  Forget the masses. I gotta be done.” I had come to a crossroads.

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs, Breaking Glasses, #1 - The Music

Walk Upon The Water - About The Songs

Breaking Glasses

#1 - The Music 

When I was a kid, Queen was a very popular band.  Today, it seems, even moreso.

There was always one song that stood out to me for the very first Queen album, “Now I’m Here.”  It had the quintessential Queen vibe in every way. Particularly to me, the one thing that made an impression was Brian May playing a straight D chord for so long, then dropping the chord with the melody after what seemed an eternity.

I have often sat around playing those opening chords throughout life.  It is a simple pattern. Straightforward. Unassuming.

I guess that it shouldn’t surprise me, or you, that I began playing a variation on that theme throughout the years.  However, I did make it unique to me.

It really is nothing new.  Guitar players have played D chord dropping to a C in the bass, descending next to the B in the bass and then on to A chord for years.  This was just my version.

Of course, as is most often the case, on one particular occasion, at the beginning of 2017, I started to sing some words and a melody that had lurked there for years.  The more I sang that line and played that pattern, the more I heard in my mind where this song was going.  

And it did.  It resolved to the G chord for the chorus, although I wasn’t sure what words were about to come, I knew the structure that had to happen to support my melody.  Of course, in the moment that I sang “I’m so tired of breaking glasses,” I knew I was onto something pretty special to me.

And I will tell you that story next time!